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[yesdoubt]

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[tennacious]

I have a few.

( it's not like tenn hasn't been able to make friends. some have come and gone just like the rest of TRIGGER, but a few still remain. sliding back into his seat, tenn closes his eyes. he knows his posture is garbage right now but it's the last thing on his mind. )

It was just easier and more enjoyable. Not that I'm unable to do the work for it, but it's never been just about me.

( more of that drink. it's tasty. talking to momo's doing wonders for his mood, too. )

Maybe I'm a little bitter that I couldn't have gone with them, too.

[yesdoubt]

[Now that they've gotten talking, Momo reaches for a drink himself, initially just bringing it closer while he responds.]

Being the only one of your group here is pretty hard, since it does make you wonder why you're here and they aren't. But even if it's not just about you, they wouldn't want you to put yourself in some kind of stasis waiting for them either.

[Figurative or literal. Inability or unwillingness to Sync could lead to a more literal and damaging version of that, which is what Momo is trying to avoid here, but even this sort of fugue state for long enough is something he knows Gaku and Ryuu wouldn't wish on him.]

[tennacious]

[ tenn sighs. he feels that he's been doing a lot of that lately. not out of self-pity, but because he just doesn't know what exactly he should be doing? making friends, sure. finding other people to sync with? sure. but honestly... he's conflicted. despite momo basically confirming what he needs to do and not necessarily what he wants to do.

having that lack of choice in the matter, other than somehow hurting himself, is... ]

I hate it.

[ though he calmly places the can down in front of him, tenn's next exhale feels warmer than warm. ]

Didn't even get a chance to say goodbye, Momo-san.

[yesdoubt]

[Momo nods understandingly, eyes on his hands for a moment before he looks up again. Having gotten here as early as he did, he made some firm friendships that were taken away as soon as people were sent back home. An existing strong bond getting the same treatment can only be worse than that.]

It sucks, but it's the same for everyone here, so I guess I can't call it "unfair". We've had so much turnover since the first month here that I'm honestly kinda surprised it took this long for a chunk of our friends to disappear. [In some respect, it's lucky. In others...well, several of them have already disappeared and there's little sign it's going to slow down. Momo is, somewhere in his compartmentalised head, bracing for the potential of having Yuki disappear on him sometime in future.]

I have to wonder what they remember when they go back. What we all will. Since Ryuu and Sougo were somewhere else first.