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[unlucky7]

[Had he left it at a deflection, Ginia might have punched his shoulder. There's still a playfully threatening raise of fist that lowers as he keeps talking.]

I'm not sure that's selfish. Or at least, maybe it's not a bad kind of selfishness.

[It's not like she knows much about selfishness. Too giving in the end. Maybe it's how the compound molded her in small ways. She always wanted everyone else to be happy, for them to stay protected. It didn't matter what happened to her. In hindsight, it's easier to see where that would have hurt people too.]

I think I still tend to live vicariously though other people. Hearing about people's normal lives and everything. Their childhood, their goals, stuff I've never really had.

[yesdoubt]

I don't think it's what Yuki means when he calls me selfish, but I think it's related.

[There's a joking note to his remark there, though that's one particular thing they've never quite managed to properly resolve - Momo's insistence on being the one to suffer if it comes down between the two of them. It had simmered over during the murder attempt, and Yuki slapping Momo in the face once they were both safe because he'd offered to exchange his own life for Yuki's, but Momo had been disgustingly drunk during that, and then the next time it came up they were both disgustingly drunk, and so it's never really managed to come up in a reasonable situation where they could discuss it.

He gives a bit of an understanding smile at Ginia's remark on living vicariously, because it's something he's had to do with at least a few things.]

I do it with romances, back home. I like the idea of an epic romance, but not being allowed to be romantic means I have to hear it from others. I think it's also just interesting to hear other people's stories, though, so I don't think anyone would begrudge you that.

[unlucky7]

I read a lot of romance books and watch a lot of romance movies.

[Which is maybe where a lot of her worse habits come from. Building any base off knowledge off romcoms and steamy romance novels is a bad idea, but so the lies build. At least she's gotten some of it figured it out by now.]

I like talking to people and hearing their stories. Finding out all the things that make someone who they are and what makes them happy. It was the sort of thing that made me want to protect people, when I could.

[yesdoubt]

Right? It's nice to know what makes people who they are, and make them happy. I like being able to use what I know about people for good things.

[Instead of using it to be calculating, as material to be held just in case someone turns on him or wants to, or otherwise. While his work has enforced some unpleasant habits, he's never particularly enjoyed having to be calculating when it doesn't involve people who entirely deserve whatever they get.]

I hope you can find a nice romance or something like that, though. Whether it's here or back home.

[unlucky7]

[A skeptical snort escapes out of reflex. There's a lot Ginia could comment on in the statement of home too, but she focuses on keeping things to romance. It's not like she isn't into the idea of being loved and all that, but it all feels a bit beyond her life too.]

I don't think that'll happen back in my world. I'm either committing to lying about myself or I have to be honest and that's not a good idea.

[Getting close to someone would make them a target anyway. Anyone around her is a target and Ginia can't shake the feeling she's already doomed people.]

Here... I don't know.

[yesdoubt]

[Momo gets the impression that people might end up finding out back home, if the people involved in her past catch up to her at any point, but that feels a bit morbid to bring up. It's easier to think about here, and in true fashion of Momo's statement of living vicariously through other people's love lives, he takes on a rather cheeky, thoughtful look with one hand under his chin.]

Well, is there anyone you've got your eye on here? It's not like we're lacking options.

[Though some people might want to keep things more open than closed, but he feels like he's seen a lot of people here in relationships with some sort of understanding about Syncing outside of it in certain situations. The magic here does make it difficult to avoid.]

[unlucky7]

[It's not like the answer is no. It shows briefly on Ginia's face—some redness in her cheeks, a glance away—before her expression settles into contemplation. There's V, obviously. They've been hooking up pretty regularly, but also hang out often enough too. There's an ease hanging out with her, and some of that comes from having similar tech.

There's also an ease with being around Dana. The other woman's intelligence, her wit, Ginia really likes all that. Hanging out with Dana is just easy, and if she thought about kissing her friend in the Ferris wheel, that's her business alone.

Ah, that's the problem, isn't it. Her face wrinkles a little in exasperation.]

I have so few friends I don't want to ruin any of it by making it more complicated with romance. Maybe I just love my friends a lot? I don't know. How did you know you wanted to be with Yuki romantically?

[yesdoubt]

[That's a fair call, admittedly, because Momo had been concerned about potential friendship-ruining with Yuki before they both ended up with an opportunity here to confess. The question she poses is a bit of a difficult one to answer, though, and Momo looks up to the sky again with one hand to his cheek, as if thinking back on it.]

Hmm...I felt different about him from when we first made eye contact, but I didn't know what name to put to the feeling at the start. I had a lot of complicated feelings in general after we started working together, too, so I don't think I'd clearly say I knew at any point in that first five years. I mean, I definitely felt really strongly about him and got all jealous and upset when I felt like he wasn't seeing me, but it was just too messy to have singled romance out. I guess after our fifth anniversary passed and I could start to see things more clearly, even if I still had some doubts lingering, that was when I was absolutely sure I wanted to stay at Yuki's side forever. Enough that I was willing to fight even my own misgivings down over it.

[And fight Yuki about the exact nature of his position, considering how many arguments they had in the immediate aftermath of Momo starting to conceal less from Yuki.]